First off, people really need to leave Britney Spears alone. I can’t really care less about her, and I think she’s tacky for getting pregnant again so soon, but come on. She’s a first time mother. She wont be perfect. I’d like cameras to follow everyone who judges her when they have kids. Do you think she wanted to almost fall (while 5 months pregnant) and drop her son? I don’t think so. Sure she should have put the cup of water down, wore different shoes and pulled up her pants, but shit happens. I trip every day, just because I’m off like that. Give her a break!

That brings me to Beyonce! Yes, I’m obsessed with Jay-Z, but I promise this will be fair. How come in every article I read where it says something about black women having curves, they point to Beyonce. Um, have you seen her lately? I don’t know what curves look like in your town, but in mine, that’s not even on the radar. She used to have a nice body, but now she seems to be going down that road that every other person in Hollywood does. Don’t tell me she “lost 20 lbs for the movie”. Whatever. I still think that she looks great and is more beautiful than most of the people I know, but I worry, you know. Lol.

And Jessica Alba. I was reading a mag where she says that she had to come to terms with the fact that she has “tits, hips and fat in places”. Where???? I don’t see any of them. How can young girls even have self esteem anymore with “role models” like them. If I had a different mind set, I’d be like, damn, if they think that’s fat…. Sad.

My computer has been so gay lately. I can’t open anything. I think I have a virus. I was on this site reading about how to hack another site and then McAfee was like, you have 6 new virus infections. LMAO. I deserve that. Can’t blame anyone but myself. BTW, I wasn’t trying to literally hack a site, I was trying to find a way to get around those sites that make you register and give credit card info to join. No, it was not an adult site. Hehe.

Well, I’m off to be bored. Everything I watch on TV is coming down to the finales, so I’m gonna have to go out and get a real life. And since Chris is gone off of Idol (I cried for 5 minutes), I’ve known the winner of ANTM for 4 weeks now, and Veronica Mars had her finale, I have nothing but the 3 CSI series, House & Law & Order SVU to watch. And they only have like 2 weeks left. Yeah, time to go out and get some air.

I’m in love with LeToya Luckett’s song “Torn”. I knew B wasn’t the only “child” with talent. They were holding her down. Damn you, Knowles family. Heh.

Today is my favorite uncle’s birthday. RIP, Uncle Manny. This year will be his second anniversary. That’s gonna be so hard. I miss him so much. I never realized how he effected my life until he died. He used to call me every day, 3 times a day and talk about nothing. When you’re that close to someone, the loss is great, you know. I think I would have taken it harder if I wasn’t prepared. When we found out he needed a heart transplant we all knew it was a chance he could die. But he didn’t. He lived for another year with a donor heart.

But he was also diabetic and when he got an infection they had to do surgery in his chest. And when you’re diabetic it takes like 3 times longer to recover. So he would go in and out of the hospital for months at a time. And the last time he went in he said he was afraid. I guess part of him knew. He called me so much those last few days. The day before he died he called me and said he looked forward to coming home so we could have a barbecue.

And I remember I was on the computer at like 3 AM and my aunt from NY (he lived with her, because they have better hospitals there) sent me an instant message saying to turn my phone on. I started crying. I knew what she was gonna say. I picked up the phone and she said “Uncle Manny is gone”. I screamed so loud. I ran to the kitchen and fell to the floor and started screaming. My mother came out of her room and said “I’ve been regretting the day I’d hear you scream like that”. Then my Grams came out of her room and she knew. I love him so much. So many times when people die there’s regret of things that you didn’t do when they were here, but I don’t have that. He knew I loved him. He knew what he meant to me.

Hmm, I don’t like the new Tyler Perry show “House of Payne”. It kinda sucks. I’m so in love with Allen Payne though, so I will be watching it. I haven’t seen him in anything since my favorite movie (Jason’s Lyric). How gay. Gosh, I love that movie. He has this homo-auro (© Miracle) about him. And I have amazing gaydar. Plus Pookie from the Salon thinks he’s “playing for my team”. You can’t really trust Pookie though, because he said the same thing about Derek Jeter ;}. If he is… I’m OK with that, because I love men who are gay. Or bi. Or metro. :}~

1) Do you like your birth-name? Why? I do now. I’ve only met one other Miracle in my whole life. That was 8 years ago and she was 3. We met at the hospital when I was getting my treatments.

2) If you could change your name to anything else, what would it be? I kinda like Miracle. But maybe a boy’s name. Like Shaun, Kyle, etc. I would list my girl names, but I’m about to use one as an alias when I switch domains. I don’t want to be found

3) What names would you consider giving your children? The last time I told someone my dream name, they stole it. Yes, I’m aware that I don’t know you people, but I’m anal. Eh.

4) If you had a band, what would you name it, and why? Carter. It would be the last name of myself and my husband, Sean. You know, Jay-Z to you (as my POE would say) mental midgets.

5) Is there a name that you completely hate? Why? George W. Bush. Enough said.