Beautifully-Human

I really love my mother. She’s the best. She knows I’m not feeling well today so she goes out of her way to do things to make me feel better. She always does that. I’m so lucky to have a mother who’s so considerate and loving. Sometimes I talk to people online or off and they complain about their parents and I’m just so happy that I can’t relate. I wish everyone could have a mother as sweet as mine.

I think we’ve definitely gotten even closer as I’ve gotten older. Although we joke around a lot and she’s my best friend in this whole world there’s still that respect. She’s my mom and that’s how I treat her. I don’t treat her as a girlfriend. Maybe that’s why we are so close. She treats me with so much respect as well. It’s nice to know someone has your best interest in mind AT ALL TIMES. I would do anything for her! I would even buy the moon for her if I could. I’m so cheesy but it’s true!! LOL I should show her this entry!

Guys, I am not having a great day today. I woke up this morning feeling extremely sick and things are not really getting much better. As if feeling physically sick wasn’t enough my family has decided to have another impromptu get together at my house. I wish my Gram would consider us when she comes up with this stuff. Actually half of the time I don’t even think she knows. I think people just spring things on her because they know she isn’t going to say anything. Maybe it wouldn’t bother me so much if I wasn’t feeling so bad but because I am it really annoys me at times. If I had some extra money I would be checking out hotel deals in New Jersey right now so I can go away for the day. I need a break and some peace and quiet!

I feel so broke. There are so many things that I want and need but I feel too broke to buy them. I think the problem is that my expenses are higher than my income. So I’m basically eating through my savings at an alarming rate. It’s sad because most of the things that I spend money on are necessities. Don’t get me wrong, I do like to treat myself to nice things every now and then, but most of my money goes to bills. I definitely need a high paying job with some great benefits. If I ever get my health in order and I’m strong enough to find a good job I’m going to be crazy about saving my money. Don’t be surprised if I even start looking into some kind of personal budgeting software as a way to keep track of my finances. It’s no fun being broke. No fun at all!!

I’m sure that I don’t have to tell all of you that it’s been a really sad weekend in the entertainment world. One day Bernie Mac dies and then the next day Issac Hayes does. It’s like a really bad joke. I feel so bad for both of their families. It’s really interesting that some people you never connect with death dies and these people who are out there living completely reckless lives seem to live forever. There’s no rhyme or reason, I guess. God is definitely in control of everything and his will shall be done. It’s really a loss though. I know I cried a lot about Bernie. I was such a big fan of his because of his show which I loved and watched all of the time. Well, I just pray that God strengthens their families at this time.