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What’s The Purpose…

I’ve decided to get rid of a lot of things in my life. I like to think of it as an early spring cleaning. I’m going to start by deleting a lot of stuff off my computer. I think my computer holds a lot of baggage and it’s really frustrating me. It’s not really just my computer though. It’s everything that I use my computer to access. Emails, certain websites, social networks, etc. I need to get rid of all of these things. It’s going to take a long time to go through everything, but I’m starting tonight and going through every file, every email, every bookmark, every website, everything…one at a time and deleting anything and everything that holds emotional baggage or serves no purpose. I’m tired of it.

I’ve had a lot of time to think lately and I really need to get myself together. I feel like I’m just floating through life. I have a purpose, I just need to get on it. I’m going to start accounting for everything. There’s no reason to have things around that have no purpose. That’s like me buying e-cigarettes when I don’t even smoke, just because they look cool. Everything needs to have a purpose or it’s going.

Nervous Week Ahead…

It’s almost 11 at night and I’m about to make some tea and watch a DVD or something. I’m kind of bored, but I’m not really ready to go to sleep yet. I’ll probably go to sleep around 1 in the morning though because I have to get up early tomorrow with my mom. Tomorrow she has to go to take a bunch of tests. She has to go to the cardiologist for blood work to see how her heart is doing. I’m nervous about that because she’s been in pain a lot lately. One time when she went to get blood work done her heart was racing so fast she needed emergency assistance. They didn’t even want to release her after the tests were over. Ugh.

But yeah, tomorrow after she finishes with the heart doctor she has to go take a physical for work. I’m not sure how that’s going to go. On Thursday she has to go back to the heart doctor to get the results of her blood work. I think I’m more afraid of these things than she is. I always worry so much that she’s going to get bad news. I probably wont sleep until Friday. And that’s if the news isn’t bad.

A Bad Bed Means Bad Sleep

I can’t wait until my mom gets her tax refund check. This year she’s buying me a new bed. I’m so happy because I really didn’t want to pay for it myself. Actually, she’s buying a new bed set for both of us. I’ve been planning to buy a new bed set for a while now because I’m allergic to the bed that I have. I’m not sure what the mattress is made of or what’s inside of it, but for some reason I always itch when I sleep on it. It had gotten so bad that I had to put my mattress in a huge plastic bag, a vinyl bed protector and a cotton mattress protector just so I wouldn’t itch.

After seeing all of those news specials when they talk about people reselling mattresses and doing weird things with them I’m scared to think what’s in my mattress. We’re planning to get our beds from a popular mattress place this time, so hopefully the quality will be better. I don’t want to have to keep buying allergy bedding because I can’t sleep on my mattress without breaking out. That’s not good at all. =/

Protective Hair Styles

Today I’m going to start taking out my braids and I’m really not looking forward to it. My mom put these braids in my hair about two weeks ago and I want to take them down so I can wash them. I usually don’t braid my hair because I prefer twists, but she wanted to braid my hair to see how long it’s grown. My hair has been growing so good lately. Cutting my hair off and going natural was a great decision. At the time I was a little nervous, but my hair has been thriving in this natural state.

I don’t think I’ll be doing these braids too often though. Even though braids make great protective styles they can also be reasons for hair loss. Not to mention they’re so time consuming. It takes about two or three hours to get them and it takes me as long to take them out. I think I’ll just get braids once a month when I’m in my old school Alicia Keys mood.